Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Reflection from Christmas Morning Service

Some people have requested the words from my reflection from the service on Christmas morning, so here it is, based on John 1:1-14.

We're still in the season of Christmas everybody - until Epiphany! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

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The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

Emperor Caesar’s census forces families to pack up and be counted. The Jewish people must leave the places where they live and work and return to the places where they were born.

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

Nighttime in the desert, no room at the inn, a family huddled in darkness. A child is born.

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

King Herod has heard of the birth of the King of the Jews and sends the Magi to find him. The Magi follow a bright star in the dark night sky.

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

The Magi, these scientists and philosophers, find the child in the stable and worship him. They do not return to the king.

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

King Herod orders the death of all infant males to stop the newborn King. Mary and Joseph escape with the baby Jesus to Egypt where they live until the death of Herod.

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

Christmas is the time when we celebrate Jesus’s presence here on earth, not just as a child in a manger, but as a man, as a living, breathing man in our midsts. We remember his presence among us, teaching and healing.

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

Christ was condemned to the cross. Christ defeated death. Christ promises new life for all.

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

The reign of Christ continues so long as we continue to do justice in the darkness of our world. Christ is present wherever there is love, wherever there is hope. Christ is the light.

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.
The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.
The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it.

So Much To Do!

Well, I was planning to sleep in every day of vacation (that is, the vacation while I'm back in CT) but it turns out the latest I've slept is 8:45, which isn't very late at all. Today I woke up at quarter after 5 and was immediately disgruntled by the fact that I was wide awake when it was still dark out and everyone was still asleep.

But I guess it's a good thing as I have about ten billion things to do before I go home tomorrow - cleaning and church stuff and taking my sister to the Trumbull mall, packing, laundry... I have a few friends who wanted me to stop by today too, but I'm not exactly sure how that's going to fit in. I guess we'll find out. :)

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry Christmas!

This morning started with opening presents from Santa (mom), followed by a short but sweet Christmas service at church. Shelbie, Paulina, and I then found an open Dunkin Donuts (Rte. 1 in Branford, if you're looking) and got breakfast. Now we're waiting... Dinner with mom's side of the family is at 5, and afterward Shelbie, Paulina, and I are going to see New Year's Eve.

Last night was really great - Shelbie, Jeremy, and I went out to dad's house and spent Christmas with him, Mark, Mema, Poppy, and Dad's friends Charise and Matt and Chuck and Jen. Dad organized a Christmas scavenger hunt, which was really cool. I managed to get all 3 of the "sorry, no clue here" cards before finally finding a card with a clue. Daddy and Mark bought me a plush zombie! It was a really fun time.

The Christmas eve service was really beautiful - it is one of my favorite church services. Singing "Silent Night" a capella with everyone circled around the church holding candles is always so pretty. And the church was packed! It was really lovely. <3

Thursday, December 15, 2011

First Semester: Finished!!

Hi all! Two weeks of silence on the blog = two weeks of writing final papers and studying!! And it's done! My first semester of grad school is finished! This is just a quick check-in... more to come on what I've learned this semester!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Longing & Hope: The First Sunday of Advent

This past Sunday, while I was home for Thanksgiving break, I was blessed with the opportunity to preach at my home church. I told some people who couldn't make it out that the sermon would be up on my blog... so here it is!

"Will it Always Be Winter?"
By Maddie Downer

(Isaiah 64:1-9, Psalm 80:1-19, 1 Corinthians 1:3-9, Mark 13:24-37)


            Today is the first Sunday of Advent. In the United Church of Christ’s lectionary calendar, the theme of this Sunday is longing. Here in our church, we use different themes for the candles. The first Sunday’s candle is hope. I had originally written a sermon about longing, about waiting for something, it was called “Sitting, Waiting, Wishing.” This is not that sermon.

            Last night I was thinking about my sermon and I realized that talking just about longing, just about how Isaiah is yearning for God to make his presence known, that’s only half of it. Longing without hope is a deep and dark place. Longing without hope is despair and loneliness. But, we believe that our longing will be answered, that there will be a light in the darkness, while we are longing, we are filled with hope.

            I thought of a favorite Christmas song of mine, “In Like a Lion” written by Relient K. They originally intended for the song to be a part of the soundtrack for the Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, the movie based on the book by CS Lewis. So, whether or not you know the song, you probably know of the book, maybe you’ve seen the movie. Just in case you haven’t been exposed to this great work, here’s a brief intro:

            Four brothers and sisters, Lucy, Edmund, Susan, and Peter Pevensie are sent to live in the countryside during World War II with Professor Digory Kirke; first Lucy, then Edmund, and finally all four Pevensie children find their way into the land of Narnia through a wardrobe in the professor’s house. When they find Narnia, the land is in a state of endless winter, a state it has been in for a hundred years already.

            Relient K’s song, picks up on this key fact, “it is always winter but never Christmas.” They are always longing, but where do they find hope? The chorus of Relient K’s song says,

Cause when it's always winter but never Christmas
Sometimes it feels like you're not with us
But deep inside our hearts we know
That you are here and we will not lose hope
           
The Biblical writers know that feeling well, that waiting on the Lord, the deep longing. We know it, too. Have you ever yearned to be closer to God? Have you ever felt like God was silent, or too far away, or you were too disconnected? I’m sure we’ve all felt a seemingly endless winter at some point… Maybe we felt like people couldn’t understand  us, like an illness had no cure, like we had no hope… Those are our winters.
This is Isaiah’s winter:
Oh, that You would rend the heavens and come down,
That the mountains might quake at Your presence
Behold, You were angry, for we sinned,
We continued in them a long time;
And shall we be saved?
6 For all of us have become like one who is unclean,
And all our righteous deeds are like a filthy garment;
And all of us wither like a leaf,
And our iniquities, like the wind, take us away.
For You have hidden Your face from us
And have [c]delivered us into the power of our iniquities.

And the Psalmist’s in Psalm 80:
                        4 O LORD God of hosts,
How long will You [d]be angry with the prayer of Your people?
5 You have fed them with the bread of tears,
And You have made them to drink tears in [e]large measure.
6 You make us [f]an object of contention to our neighbors,
And our enemies laugh among themselves.

            And in chapter 13 of the gospel of Mark, Mark’s is cautioning – we don’t know when the Lord will come again, so be alert. The sense of disconnection, of waiting, of longing to be with the Lord once more, is there.

            Here, two thousand years later, we are still in the middle of a winter – we are still waiting on the coming of the king, on a new heaven and a new earth, we are still longing to be fully present to the divine, we are still longing for peace and justice for all people, we are longing for a world where children don’t go to sleep hungry, where parents don’t have to decide whether to pay for the house or pay for health insurance, a world where the other 99% of the population is treated fairly, where people aren’t treated as less than based on their gender, their race, their religion, or what-have-you, a world where who you love doesn’t generate hate from others, a world where “ism’s” and “phobias” don’t exist… we’re so far from that now, we’re in one heck of a winter, we’re longing for a change in the weather…

            Thankfully, in our longing, there is a deep sense of hope. Isaiah held onto this hope in the midst of his longing:
            5 You meet him who rejoices in doing righteousness,
Who remembers You in Your ways.
8 But now, O LORD, You are our Father,
We are the clay, and You our potter;
And all of us are the work of Your hand.
9 Do not be angry beyond measure, O LORD,
Nor remember iniquity forever;
Behold, look now, all of us are Your people.

The Psalmist finds hope as well:
            18 Then we shall not turn back from You;
Revive us, and we will call upon Your name.
19 O LORD God of hosts, restore us;
Cause Your face to shine upon us, [n]and we will be saved.

In the New Testament, the disciples’ hope lies in the return of the Lord, the second coming of the King, which they eagerly await. Our great hope, too, lies in the Lord.

However, something Mark said made me think that just waiting wasn’t enough. Mark tells us to ‘keep alert!’ which I think means, start acting now. Keep alert to the injustices in the world and the ways in which God would want us to respond to them. Do all we can in love, work towards respect and equality for all people, cultivate peace… In the middle of our winter, we can sow the seeds of hope.  We must be alert, but not idle. For if the master of the house returns, do we want him to see the house the way it is now? Servants oppressing other servants, some starving, some fighting, the house in disarray? Or do we want to prepare the house as best we can?


We’re headed into the physical season of winter now. The days are shorter, the nights are longer, the air is colder. But, like the Biblical writers anxiously awaiting the coming of the messiah, we too have a reminder of this hope in Jesus Christ, in our remembrance of his birth, in our remembrance of his death on the cross and the great hope that his sacrifice gives to us. We have hope because believe that Christ has died and Christ has risen and Christ will come again.

I encourage you, this winter, to take a look at the places in your life, in our church and community, in our world, that are longing for something – for change, for attention, for love – and start infusing these darkened places with hope. Light a candle, say a prayer, sit with God and recognize the brokenness of our world, our selves… and recognize that in God there is hope, that all things might be made new, that it might be winter now, but soon, yes, soon it will be Christmas.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving

I'm very thankful to be spending the holiday with my family! We went to Walter and Misaki's house for dinner. It was a Very Vongher Thanksgiving. <3

Shelbie is currently working overnight for Black Friday, so if you're out and about tonight, go visit her at Wal-Mart! Jeremy, Raph and a couple of their friends are braving the crowd to go shopping.

And me? I am relaxing at home, hanging out with my favorite little furball, and working on my church history paper.

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Meetinghouse Sunday

It's Meetinghouse Sunday at Old South!!

I get to go see Quinn (or Nancy, I'm not sure yet) in action.

For those of you who can't make it to Downtown Crossing, you can read his daily devotional, here:

http://act.ucc.org/site/MessageViewer?em_id=38562.0&dlv_id=48321

Friday, November 11, 2011

Cover of "Love You Till The End" by The Pogues

A few weeks ago, ANTS had a coffeehouse night. I played this song and finally got around to making a video for everyone back home... It's a great song, and you'll probably know it because it was featured in the movie P.S. I Love You. I love it... Oh, and I know the quality is not amazing but... I don't have a mac, so... Enjoy:

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Colby Chapel

Today I went with my friend Caitlin (who is part architect, part student, all awesome) to see Colby Chapel. Colby Chapel is a chapel on the ANTS campus that isn't used anymore because the school leases out the building to an architecture firm and, while they don't use the chapel, fire code rules say there aren't enough exits to accommodate both (or something like that).

Anyway, it's a beautiful little space... Here are some pictures I took:

Stained glass window, Colby Chapel.
M Downer, 2011

 Inscription on Pulpit, Colby Chapel.
M Downer, 2011

 Gabled roof, Colby Chapel.
M Downer, 2011

 Song of Songs, Colby Chapel.
M Downer, 2011

 Bible, Colby Chapel.
M Downer, 2011

 Altar, Colby Chapel.
M Downer, 2011

 Quiet, Please, Colby Chapel.
M Downer, 2011

Communion, Colby Chapel.
M Downer, 2011


Cross, Colby Chapel.
M Downer, 2011

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Lamentations

In my spiritual practices class, we've recently been doing a lot of work with lamentations... It strikes the very core of my being. If we can't be honest with each other and our feelings and up front with the fact that our lives are not always sunshine and rainbows, what kind of family are we?

Lamenting is part of being human. God didn't create humans to be angels - God created angels to be angels - we're not supposed to be perfect. We have ups and downs, peaks and valleys, and honoring our wounds and scars is part of being whole and holy.

This is the first thing from the class that's really struck me in such a way... I know I am supposed to do more with this, but I don't know exactly what that means.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Theology On Tap

I'm really blessed to have a great friend here at school. Okay, so I have more than one, but this particular friend is a beacon of light for me. He is very supportive and affirming. We work together and have class together and organize the UCC fellowship together, so it's a good thing we get along so well.

Tonight, after I got off of work, we went to Union Street for drinks and dinner and we talked a lot about theology, plans for our future congregations, what we think church will look like, what we think it needs to look like, he lent a kind and nonjudgmental ear to the things that I am having trouble with.

I am very grateful for his presence and I hope I can be the same kind of person for him.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Ouch!

I sprained my ankle:


See all that puffiness below my tattoo? that's usually not there... I tripped walking to work yesterday morning, heard a poppy-snapping sound and felt the really sharp pain...

Today: RICE. Rest. Ice. Compression. Elevation.

Oh, and Jerbear is coming to visit, so that will make me feel better, too!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Mid-Term Time!

Well, I've been working on papers and studying for most of the weekend. This is mid-terms week!

My paper for Worship class is done, I've got a good start on my History paper. I need to study a LOT more for Old Testament because I'm not good at memorizing maps so... I don't really know Assyria from Judah from what have you yet... It just doesn't stick... but I'll learn it.

I'm also participating in the campus coffeehouse on Wednesday night so that will be fun. I'm going to play guitar and sing... probably a song from The Pogues, but I'm still not sure. Maybe, if I can get a small enough file, I will put it up here for y'all to enjoy. :)

So, this is really just a quick check in because it's been a few days. More after mid-terms are done!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

An Attitude of Gratitude

One of the things I'm doing as part of my spiritual practices class is trying to cultivate an attitude of gratitude... you know, for class and for life in general. Well, I just wanted to share something...

Yesterday a woman came into Starbucks and ordered a Venti Soy Latte. I was making her drink and talking to her at the espresso bar. She told me it was her birthday and that she didn't have anyone to celebrate it with so what she was doing was treating herself to a venti instead of a tall. That didn't sound like a great birthday so I asked if I could sing to her. She said she'd enjoy that very much. So I sang Maureen happy birthday. She thanked me and told me it made her day and she was glad she stopped in. I thanked her for letting me be a part of her birthday. When I was walking home, I thought it over - she let me into her vulnerability, her loneliness, she let me take residence there for a brief time.

I am grateful to be invited into a few moments of Maureen's life and that I was gifted with the honor of being a bright spot in her day.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

A Family Affair!

Mom, Shelbie, and Laurin came up to Boston for Suffolk's family weekend!

I went out to the hotel for the weekend and us girls had a grand old time. Saturday we went to watch Raph and the Suffolk Ramifications compete in an a capella contest, then we went shopping. We went to Fire & Ice for lunch, an awesome place that's like hibachi, except you can make whatever you want. We went to Jillian's Lucky Strike near Fenway for bowling, billiards and tons of free (junk) food. Fried mac and cheese? Yep. Today, Mom and Shelbie came out here and saw my room all set up before heading to the bus to go back to CT. It was a lot of fun!

Now on to the homework...

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Celebrating Sukkot

Tonight was awesome, really amazing.

I need to preface the explanation of the night with this: (caution for the easily offended/young - there is a swear that also means donkey herein) there is a bar down the hill that hosts a trivia night. Every Wednesday a bunch of people gather, most every week there is - among the many other teams - a team from ANTS and a team from the rabbinical school next door. We are the Sinister Ministers, Hebrew College is the Bad Ass Rabbis. Trivia is a great time of community building, not only on our own teams, but, it turns out, between our two schools.

This evening, the Sinister Ministers were invited to join the Bad Ass Rabbis to begin the Sukkot celebration. It was amazing. A slight mist didn't keep us from enjoying each other's company. There was plenty of fruit and baked goods (amazing almond biscotti!), apple cider, and other libations. Sukkot is a holiday where the Jewish people have to be happy, and they were and they shared that with us! We ate in a sukkah in the backyard of one of the students and his wife. We had some great dialogue about the different faiths represented (different types of Christianity, UU, and, of course, Judaism were all around the table) and questions from all parties were welcomed.

An example of a sukkah, though this is not the one we celebrated in... this one is from Google Images...

The atmosphere was one of friendship and generosity. It was a real blessing to be a part of the beginning of Sukkot with the Bad Ass Rabbis... I just hope that we can continue the conversation that has started up the past few weeks!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Hanging out with Brother Bear!

On Thursday, Jer and I went to The Garment District and looked at all the great Halloween costumes they've got. He tried on a pirate coat, boots, hat:



We saw 50/50 at the movie theater on the commons. If you haven't seen 50/50, you definitely should. It was a great movie, all around.

Today, we're going to Guitar Center by Fenway to peruse their Columbus Day sale offerings.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

I GOT A JOB!!

I'm so excited! Today I went to Community Day (we helped the pastor from Monson, MA move from the parsonage that had been damaged by the hurricane earlier this past summer) and I noticed around lunch time that I had missed a call. I checked my voicemail and it was Sue from Starbucks asking me to give her a call back. I did and she said,

I'd like to offer you the job, if you're still interested.

So of course I was like,

YES!

And so now I go down Friday to get everything in order and start working! I am so grateful to have found a job, and a flexible one where I get to interact with lots of people is amazing!

Thank you for all your prayers and positive energy! It worked!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Hello again, School!

Hey all! I'm back at school again. It was good to see my friends, family, and church this weekend. Of course, I didn't get to see everyone, but that just means I'm going to have to come back!

I went to church and picked up a lot of information on the history of the church that Pastor Deb had. I'm going to start going through it - one of my projects for school includes writing a history for a local church so I figured why not my home church? I'm excited to get to work on that.

I had an interview today with Starbucks. I'm still emailing with Hebrew College. I plan on widening my search to Brookline if I things don't pan out here. Hopefully I will find a job before mid-October because I really need to start working by the end of this month.

Tonight, the UCC fellowship is having their first event! I'm so excited to be a part of this group. I love the UCC and I guess that the fellowship has been kind of "eh" the last year or two... No longer! :) We're having a Theology Slam (kind of like a poetry slam but with theology instead). I'm not sure what to expect but I'll let you know!

Also, I need to plug the Be Bold, Be Bald! fundraiser here.

Finally, the weather here is beautiful - sunshine and crisp autumn air.

Friday, September 30, 2011

Home!

So, I posted a picture earlier about loving the place you come from... because I was headed home for the weekend! It was a surprise to my sister so I didn't want to say anything, just in case she happened to look at this before I got there!

I'm so excited to be with my family and friends and my fluffy little girl, Fiona!

I'm taking the rest of the weekend off - see you on Monday!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Immediately (Mark 10:46-52)

Immediately, he regained his sight and followed Jesus on the path.


This is the verse that jumped out at me during lectio divina today. I was reading Mark 10:46-52, "Bartimaeus receives his sight."


There are a lot of things about passage that I love:
Bartimaeus knows that he's broken. In his valley of despair, he still trusts in the Lord. He calls out to Jesus. It takes courage, it takes faith, to confront the brokenness that is inside ourselves. And we've all got it. Bartimaeus's brokenness is partly physical - he's blind.


And so, Bartimaeus is shouting, "Jesus, have mercy on me!" And everyone around him, the crowds following Jesus, they're all saying, "Bartimaeus, you just shut your mouth." (i.e. rebuking)


And Jesus stops walking and says, "Eh, no no no. Call him over to me." Jesus stands still. In this big, loud crowd, Jesus hears Bartimaeus's call and he stands still.


So someone, I'm guessing it was one of the disciples but really it just says the very vague 'they,' tells Bartimaeus Jesus has called him.


Jesus asks Bartimaeus, "What do you want me to do for you?" Now, we can unpack that syntax another time, I think it's pretty loaded. 


Bartimaeus says, "Rabbi, I want to see." Woah. Now, I know Bart is blind, but this is kind of what we all want, right? We want to see. We want to see past our fears, past our selves. We want to see the world, the good. We want to understand our place in all of it. We want to know God. We want to see.


And Jesus says, "Go, your faith has healed you." Jesus doesn't say, "I have healed you." He says your faith, your trust in God, your continual belief (not dogma or creed), the faith you have in the Lord in the midst of your brokenness, your willingness to be vulnerable, to open yourself and trust in the Lord, that is what made you well. That's what I think Jesus is saying to Bartimaeus.


But wait, Bart doesn't just go off on his merry way once he can see again. 


IMMEDIATELY, he regained his sight. Immediately. And he followed Jesus on the path. Once his eyes were opened, there was no going back to his prior life.


His trust in God was so deep and real that it healed him. It made him well, it made him whole. And once Bartimaeus regained his sight, he didn't just say, "I'm going to do what I want now," even though Jesus didn't tell him he couldn't. Bartimaeus said, 'I've seen this good that trust in the Lord can do and I can't go back to living my life like I was before.' and  he followed Jesus on the path. 


Immediately. That word has stuck with me all day. The decision follow Jesus on the path wasn't one contemplated with pros-and-cons lists. The bills weren't all paid, money wasn't saved. Right then and there, the presence of the Lord so changed Bartimaeus's life that he couldn't go back to life he knew... There was nothing there for him because he had found a way to move past his despair, to become whole. Immediately. 



Monday, September 26, 2011

Be Bold, Be Bald!

This year, I'll be participating in a fundraiser to raise money for cancer research, patient care, etc. through a project called Be Bold, Be Bald! 


I'll be wearing a bald cap all day and I've set my fundraising goal at $150. If we can meet that, great! If we can go beyond that, awesome! And I say "we" because this is a team effort. I'll be wearing the bald cap but I need sponsors. 


I can't imagine there still exist people whose lives haven't been affected, in some way, by cancer. If there are, realize how blessed you are. I've had family and friends who have fought cancer and I've lost family to cancer. And, I know he wasn't a human, I've also lost a dog to lung cancer. Now, the fundraiser is for research/care for cancer in humans, but I was trying to illustrate my point. 


So, I set the bar low, I think. If I get 30 friends with $5, well, this will be easy as pie for all of us. If I get 15 friends with $10, that works too. If I get some friends with $1 and some friends with $10, and some who aren't feeling the effects of the economy right now with $30, well, hey we are on a roll. 


HOW CAN YOU HELP FIGHT CANCER?


Go to my Be Bold, Be Bald! 2011 fundraising page:  http://beboldbebald.kintera.org/MaddieDatANTS

An Interview!

Hi friends!

I am generally the type of person who keeps what may be good news under wraps until the last minute but I guess if we can't be candid about our worries and our fears, then we're not really open to others... So, knowing that there is still the possibility that this may not work out, I have some good news:

I got an interview at one of the places I've applied! 

Finally! I've been submitting applications, following up, and worrying about finding a job like crazy and no potential employers have expressed any interest. Now, I know I do not have a job yet but the possibility is still nice.

Please send me your positive thoughts and prayers, as this job is in a great location and it's an office assistant position, which I've got three years of experience in, so I would be awesome at it... I just have to show them that when I interview! 

I'll let you know what happens.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Sunday

Hey everybody!


Right now I'm taking a break from reading about the liturgical year (did you know it starts with Easter and not Advent? And that Easter is 50 days long, not just one Sunday?). Homework has been lots of reading, which I'm often accomplishing on the T.


Yesterday, I went over to Cambridge to go to this massive vintage/second-hand clothing store and super amazing costume shop. Their costumes were a bit pricey but the clothes were amazing. I didn't actually get any clothes but I was amazed at everything they had.


Today, I cleaned my room (I know, this is exactly why you come to look at my blog, right?). Woohoo. I clean my room, like, every day though so that's not really exciting... Anyway, I'm gonna finish up my reading for tomorrow's class and then a group of friends are doing a reading of Hamlet on the quad (I'm Queen Gertrude!) so I'm going to that in a little while.


Later on, well, probably more homework. Or trolling Craigslist for jobs... I still haven't found though I apply a couple places every day. Please keep my job search in your prayers.


<3


P.S. If you haven't read the Still Speaking devotional today, here it is. I laughed when I saw it because it's titled, "Darn That Jesus."


P.P.S. Why is it so humid when it's almost October?

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Anna Rose at the Ames Hotel

So, I like to read dig, an online (and print) source for music/theater/arts/tv/food/etc. Pretty much, if you live in Boston, read it and you can find stuff to do. I got an email today that listed all the goings on and I saw the intro to this article that said Anna Rose would be playing at the Ames. I was hooked because she covered one of my favorite songs from Arcade Fire, "My Body is a Cage." Okay, so it's five o' clock when I read this and the article says 6-9. I asked around campus and put it out on facebook but, you know, with literally an hour until the show, no one was free. I almost decided against going but I'm glad I didn't.

I got to the Ames at 7 and ordered the obligatory drink (free actually means "buy a drink" so I bought a coke because that's how I roll, homes) and Anna Rose came on shortly after. I scored a nice spot where I could lean back against a column and listen to the music. I was immediately glad that I'd surpassed my "shy" tendencies.

Anna Rose's voice is filled with emotion, her lyrics reflect hard work and real life. She isn't manufactured and I'm glad because her words, her music, her voice, her essence is real and that comes across when she's joking around with her band between songs, when she's telling the audience which drinks sound good, and when she's laying her soul out for everyone to see (well, hear).

I bought her CD after the show so I could continue to listen and... she gave me her set list! How awesome is that? :)


So I'm really glad that I went out tonight because I would have missed some awesome music and a great experience in "doing things solo."

Please check out Anna Rose on itunes, her CD is called "Nomad"
She's also on facebook and twitter so be sure to like/follow her!

Thank you, Aunt Dee!

My favorite emails are the ones that say, 


You have a package in Upper Noyes Hall.

I especially love when I get them and I'm not expecting a package, like yesterday, and again today! While I've still got another hour before I can pick up today's package, yesterday's package was a real treat!



My aunt Dee sent me homemade cookies, brownies, and - my favorite - magic bars! Also, pumpkin spice jello and candies and cookies and a journal and a sweet note! It was such a great surprise! And I've been sick for almost a week now so this was really nice and made me feel a lot less "blah" than I've been feeling lately.

Thank you, Dee Dee! I love you & miss you! 

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Thursday Debrief

So, I'm done with my first week of classes. I know this semester is going to be a lot of work but I think all of my teachers are amazing and I've got a pretty good selection of classes going.


My worship class is going to be all about learning the liturgical year (don't fret, ex-Catholics, this is a good thing, and - believe it or not - something we still use in the UCC, we just want to call it something else, the order of worship, the bulletin, whatever, same stuff.)


My spiritual practices class focuses on the inner spiritual life - learning different ways to pray and to connect with our selves and God in different ways.


My history class covers America's religious history. We also focus on the history of a religious institution in our "local history" projects.


Finally, my Old Testament course focuses on... the Old Testament! Which is different from the Tanakh/Jewish Bible, and which can be referred to as the Hebrew Bible, but as we learned today, the Jewish Bible and the OT are in different orders, on purpose. And the Jewish Bible wasn't entirely in Hebrew, parts of it were in Aramaic... So our words fall short as usual. But when I refer to the class, I will generally refer to it as Hebrew Bible, for the sake of trying to respect all parties involved. But I love these books - the Song of Solomon, the Psalms, the heartbreakingly honest poetry in the book of Job... The Hebrew Bible is real and raw and it is life... It says that God is the creator of all, good and bad, and in the midst of all of this, we continue to love our God. These are the books that Jesus and the disciples lived by, they are the roots for everything that has come after... and as the dean said at convocation - 


A tree without roots will not be able to stand against the wind.


These are the roots that the tree grew out of, my tree, my faith. And I feel it would be wrong to say that one or the other, in my opinion, is better. Both are absolutely necessary. Both are filled with God's promises, with life. The Old Testament continues to speak alongside the New Testament. So, as you can tell, I'm really excited for that course... because if we just look at the New Testament and say "Well, nothing else matters now that we have this," then we are really missing out, because the Jewish Bible is what Jesus lived, so it has to matter for those of us who believe in the salvation God offers through Jesus... if our faith has no roots, well, we might get knocked over.
Now, all this is not to say that we must still live the Old Testament. Obviously I don't think we should uphold the values of stoning women or disobedient children or what-have-you. But what I'm saying is, the Hebrew Bible isn't old, there is still so much that it reveals to us, so much we will never fully know.


One day we can talk about how much I believe that God's word is still being unveiled to us, that the word of the Lord is not static, but that it evolves, that, as we love to say in the UCC, 'God is still speaking.' But this is already pretty long and it was just meant to be an overview of my classes so... I think I'll go to dinner.


Peace&Blessings

Monday, September 12, 2011

Reflections on 9/11 Remembrances

Hi all, I wanted to use today's entry to reflect on yesterday. I am sure we've all heard our share of remembrances, but indulge me; let me tell you one more story:

On Sunday, the ten year anniversary on 9/11, I went to the 9 AM service at Old South church. I sat in the Gordon Chapel, contemplating if I'd actually be coming back (because I had not actually been greeted by anyone in the 15 minutes I was there prior to the beginning of the service). When the service started, I felt myself falling back into the church routine. I was also amazed by the amount of people who came to the "smaller" early morning service, because it was easily 75 people. I figured, rightly so, that the church would do some sort of remembrance of what happened on the eleventh of September, ten years ago.

At a point in the service, Rev. Caldwell asked us to turn to our neighbor and tell our story of 9/11. My neighbor was a woman visiting Old South for the first time, an artist, whose name I have unfortunately let slip from my mind. I shared my story of being in freshman history in room 210, Mrs. Gallagher opened the door because the small, quiet librarian was running through the halls saying "Turn on the TV! The twin towers have been hit! We're under attacke!" and I remember watching CNN with my history class, one girl whose uncle worked in the towers. I remember hearing a plane had targeted the pentagon and crashed. I remember the TV saying it was the end times. I remember lots of fear from all sides.

My neighbor said her husband was supposed to be flying into New York that morning but, for whatever reason, he didn't go. She said that she felt so sad her young children, and my generation, would have to grow up in the aftermath of this tragedy. Together, we let silent tears fall as we mourned all that was lost that day.

Then, Rev. Caldwell asked us to tell another story - what are we doing to make sure this doesn't happen again? In different ways, we both answered that we would love on the world, her with her ministry through art, and I with my ministry through the church. We both believe that peace is attainable and we are both putting parts of ourselves out into the world to try and make it a reality.

We took communion and she ducked out before the service was finished, but she's somewhere in Boston, painting pictures of hope, putting her love out there for the world to see, doing what she can to cultivate peace.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Art Night #1

Hi all! Just a quick check-in to say "orientation is going awesome!!" I went to art night last night - and a second one this night - at the studio in the meetinghouse and this is what I made:


"Communion" Madelyn Downer, 2011

Well, I don't think of myself as much of an artist - my brother got all that talent - but the artist in residence told me I have to "claim [my] art" so that's what I'm doing!

On the agenda for tomorrow: more orientation!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Cup of Coffee = Ministry

I've been applying to a lot of coffee houses here and, unlike most people applying to Dunkin Donuts/Starbucks/etc., it's not just because I need a job. Yes, it is partially because I need a job, but I'm applying at coffeehouses because I believe that 


serving coffee is a ministry.


A cup of coffee can get you through a long Monday afternoon at work. I've seen it brighten the faces of homeless people and I've seen it be a comforter to many, many college students during finals time - myself included.


It's an experience, one that starts with a genuine and friendly, "Hi, how're you doing? What can I get for you?" If a barista/server/whatever you want to call it, treats you like you're just one customer closer to quitting time, well, that's never made me feel very good. The servers (or cashiers at stores, like the one older woman at Target in North Haven) who recognize that you, the customer, are, in fact, a person and who treat you as such, those are the ones who make a mundane thing, like grabbing coffee, an actual positive experience in your life...


And, because ministry is my vocation, I want to work at a coffee shop. Whether it's something like Dunkin' or Branford's Common Grounds, people need coffee, and people need a connection, not just an empty "have a nice day" with a cup of burnt coffee.


Tuesday, September 6, 2011

How To Tuesdays: Grocery Shopping in Grad School

Well, we all need to eat, even us grad students. Today, I went grocery shopping. The snack foods I brought from home just would not cut it for meals the week before the cafe opens. I realized this last night when I was about to go sans dinner for the second night in a row (in all fairness, I just forgot to eat the first night - I was so enthralled in getting my room in a live-able state). I was wondering whether I wanted peanut butter crackers or Ramen noodles (without the seasoning - too much sodium!) and I was really lamenting the fact that I'd forgotten about bread, tuna, and beans when buying food back home. 

Turns out, when you need something, all you have to do is ask! Who knew?

So, I was talking to my new friend about the lack of protein filled, life sustaining foods in my room and she offered to drive me down to the store! She's so sweet! I thought she'd also be getting something, but she really wasn't there for any other reason except to drive me. And, on top of that, she gave me a chocolate cheesecake bite that she'd bought at the grocery store! She drives me somewhere and gives me chocolate? I think that's grounds for Sainthood right there.

My mantra on this shopping trip: Protein. Protein. Protein. 
(My friend, Greg, would be proud.)

Okay, you can see this isn't really a how-to guide, but let me tell what I did learn from my first real grocery shopping experience all on my very own:

1. The push cart is definitely preferable over the basket. Especially when you plan on getting glass bottles of juice and cans of beans.
2. Fruit is really expensive. I'm hoping a certain mother will see this and send me a few packages of diced peaches...
3. Canned vegetables don't go bad (well, at least not in the next year or two)... Plus, if I get fresh vegetables, I'm going to bike to the farmer's market and get them there.
4. Just because the brand you love is on sale does not mean it's going to be cheaper than the store brand. I got the store brand because I am a college student who still has not found a job (what... three days later?).
5. Planning is important. I saw a lot of stuff I'd love to have but didn't need (Rose tea for $8.99/15 bags), it was more important to buy protein and filling foods... hence the beans, burritos, canned veggies, and mac and cheese... I did splurge on the Sweet Leaf teas because they're on sale for $1 each and... I love them.

I'm going to do some more job hunting in the morning (who knows - maybe the Newton music shop will put up a "help wanted" sign while I'm asleep) and then go to Faneuil Hall, maybe some other places...

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Settled In at School

Well, after waiting for what seemed like forevvvvvverrrrr... I am settled in at school! I spent most of the day with my family, pilfered some hangers from Raph (because I forgot mine, of course), and then went back to my dorm to set up my space... It's a great little space, but it photographs much better in the light...

As a little teaser, I'll show you what it looked like earlier in the day:

Home Sweet Mess

I'll post the pictures of my room all set up tomorrow... For now, I'm going to go to bed and try and wake up by 6 AM.

<3

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Don't You Forget About Me

My sister gave me and my brother going away presents today:

My going-away present from Shelbie.

She's too cute. This is what she put in the box:

  • A picture of her silly, wonderful self. It's a very funny picture... On it she wrote, "Don't you forget about me" a la Simple Minds.
  • A Halloween craft/recipe magazine and a Whole Living magazine.
  • A laundry bag for my drrrrrty clothes.
  • A gift card for Starbucks (yay! I don't have to give up coffee because I'm broke... yet!)
  • A 6 pack... of Ramen! 
  • Hello Kitty bandaids!!
  • Gigantic paperclips
  • Q-Tips
  • Ear plugs
  • A rubber band ball
  • A funky little pen
  • Some cash money and
  • A roll of quarters so I can do laundry!
She put tags on some of the stuff... for instance, on a package with a map and a Bible she channeled Carrie Underwood and wrote "if you ever lose your way" <3

A map of Boston... and two faces I'm going to miss a lot!!

She's my bestest friend in the whole wide world... I don't know what I'm going to do without her! Who will finish my sentences? I'll have to speak whole thoughts! :(

Well, I'm going to pack up the computer now and get to work on packing the car... Next time I write, I'll be on the other side of the state line.